Perseverance

 perseverance : continued effort to do or achieve something despite difficulties, failure, or opposition : the action or condition or an instance of persevering:steadfastness.

 This is my favorite word, my favorite theme, and the title of my favorite painting.  The late Thomas Kincade has a painting that shows a sailboat being tossed around in the waves.  The painting speaks to me.  I have often felt like that sailboat being tossed about by life.  This week was the first week of school, and I was not ready.  I love summer, the lack of a schedule, sleeping in.  I am an insomniac and many nights I didn't get to sleep till 3 or 4 am.  This really doesn't work well when you get up at 6:15.  So everyday this week I awoke with Persevere on the brain.  Just put one foot in front of the other.  I enjoy reflecting on the many heroes in the bible.  Many of those people faced incredible odds and put their faith in God and persevered.  I do not even put myself in the same boat as them but everyone can identify to being tossed around by life.  I have had some real lows this week, and some incredible highs as well.  We can handle and rejoice the highs so easily but those little pesky lows, they really throw us for a loop.  My low this week was writing down my measurements, to make this worse I had my husband help.  There I was with nowhere to hide.  I hated those numbers they seemed to mock me even though I know I am a beast in the gym.  The truth is my diet needs some altering or nothing will change.  I am not any good at restrictive diets.  I usually don't make it one day before I messed it up and then it just doesn't seem worth the trouble to continue.  This time I have decided to try something new, no restricting, no forbidding certain foods.  I am going to eat and drink what I enjoy and know I will not give up I am just going to cut back, slowly.  Eat less, be sensible.  I am pretty sure this will make the process much longer but I am hoping it will help.
   I love the idea of this blog, I have no hopes of being discovered and don't really check to see how many times the blog has been viewed.  I don't write for anyone in particular.  The dream is that someone stumbles upon it and sees that they are not alone.  We all feel alone sometimes, and the funny thing is even with all this technology we feel like we are the only one in the entire world to feel the way we do.  Maybe there is someone in the world who shares some of my struggles.  That mysterious person is who I am trying to reach.  Maybe I have a friend who reads this out of curiosity and  they may have similar struggles that they hide within and this helps them know they are not alone.  We all must persevere everyday even if that means getting out of a warm bed, and put one foot in front of the other.